As we begin the New Year, many of us have ideas of how we desire 2015 to “pan out.” Maybe you have created a theme for the year or have listed out your desires.
Or maybe, you are finding yourself confused.
Either confused about how to actually manifest your desires…. Y’know, how to bridge the gap between where you are now and what you want to experience. Or, confused about your desires overall.
There are so many messages blasted at us throughout our lives. Fall in love, get married, have children, work hard, save money, travel, etc. Oftentimes, we think we know our desires, but as we walk towards them, we find ourselves quite uncertain. We begin to questions whose desire this is we are chasing after – maybe it was your Mother or Father’s dream, maybe it was your best friend’s desire. It doesn’t matter whom it belongs to… the truth is, that it is no longer what your heart is yearning for.
And so we search for clarity.
Sometimes, we even torment ourselves trying to get clear on what it is that we most want to experience.
I know I spent most of my 20’s in this space. I remember many times looking at my life and feeling so sad and frustrated that my outer experiences were not matching my inner longings. And so I would sit at my altar for long periods of time, speaking my heart. Or I would have a session with an intuitive or ask friends what they thought I “should” do to create the life I envisioned.
I knew I wanted different. But different wasn’t quite clear yet.